What are we fighting for

Why do we even bother

We don’t see eye to eye no more

This house is tearing apart

..................................................,

Nothing much!

Im just sitting here waiting for something good to come my way.
What else is there? tick toc tic toc.. Pfft..

Cant give up.. Refuse to..

Hope and Pray for the best..

Everyday is a new day =)

TGIF...

I have never been so excited for weekend in like forever. Thank god!! wuuhuu.. Tired tired tired after last week with busy nonstop going to many "hari raya" openhouses to catch up with friends then this week with endless thinking.Sigh. I know its only in the early stages and I am already dreading. What have I got myself into hmm?! Not only am i sooo physically unfit right now. I cant help to say that I am sooo mentally unfit as well and not prepare for this moment. Seriously I an unsure how Id survive.

Now I am just looking forward to tomoro the least. Though there is so much stuff to settle and all the least I can do a little relaxing ehe. My bet is that I wont even get my late mornings AGAIN for the time being. Pfft, Oh well...

Cant wait for my cb session tomoro night hope thats still happening ;)

time for bed soonish..

xoxo
Nee

Relieve

I just need to say this




OH MY GGGGGGGoDDDDDDDD!!!!





Theres nothing to worry and nothing much to but I sure am thankful and glad that everything is ok... I still cant believe it..daym ehe..


Ok now im a little at ease teehee....Off to zzzz land now
I will leave you with a nice shot taken by my dear friend. I miss the group pic taking. XD







Loves it..
Miss you *winks*

SHR

Its already been a week of the eid mubarak celebration here and Im just being soooo random right now. I feel like posting something. Today was a really interesting day.. Oh I even cant believe that loads of the area in Brunei had a blackout.... Unlucky for most people till now some still havent have any electricity and its been more than 5 hours. Despite the whole blackout around the country it didnt stop us from going to houses for 'raya-ing'. We managed to go to 4 houses..what a good new experience aha..oh i totally forgot to mention, me and my friends were so bored at their house thinking the blackout would only be a while.. we took some silly pics which turn out great tho..hope i could post em here but sadly to say its all with me fren..This year its just not as great, I miss the whole family going together visiting relatives together...Sigh Oh how I miss it...Right now Im just a little excited (duno why) but seems like most of the people I can talk to arent online...Anyhoots its late and I so need to wash my face and head to bed..Hopefully tomoro will be a better day and I get to see "that person" again ;)

Lastly "SELAMAT HARI RAYA" to everyone who is celebrating it. <3ss

Tired...Sleepy but so AWAKE!

Its 5 in the morning and I am still so wide awake. Sigh… Since I cant sleep might as well do some blogging. Today is the fourth day of fasting. Feels so good although we cant eat during the day. Had my breaking the fast with some friends. Nothing special just got to get together and sort of have a little gathering. It was a good time to spend with some friends. Basically I just spend the whole night not being home and end up hanging out till midnight after eat and prayers that is. It was an exciting day I shall say, got to meet more new people and well got to catch with somemore old friends. Had a short session of reminiscing too about the good old high school days aha. Things really have changed a lot. Especially most of them are now so busy with work or starting a family. Sometimes it is good to have that discussion just as long as they don’t ask me bout it cause I am just not ready for such stuff myself. I think it is still a long journey where I need to accomplish something first. Dont get me wrong I am happy for them but as for me here I will need to achieve my goal first. One day one day... Anyhoots I am so going overboard here. I am just rambling cause I hate the fact that I am tired but I cant sleep. I so need to make myself tired so I can sleep easily.Seems to me if I exhaust myself it is harder for me to sleep. Maybe need to do some spa-ing for so,e calm effect. Oh yeah I so want to go out to watch a movie now. In need to watch something and NEED TO SLEEP..Pfft..

Happy Fasting...Ciao

Randomness

Aaaahhh its that time of the year again FASTING season is here. Yayness time to cleanse yourself (I kinda need that now!) teehee. The month of Ramadan is here. We here will be starting on Saturday here. Im so excited about it, cant wait whats there in store for this year ehe. This is the season where every year people get so excited with a whole lot of spending. Trust me you spend so much in the two month preparing for the Eid Mubarak festive from food to clothes. Time for splurging n no saving. The way we celebrate it here you wud be surprise. Its like christmas uhu.. Just cant wait. At least theres something for us to look forward to right..


Oh yeah speaking of which, besides the fact that I am still unemployed I am thankful that everything now seems to be improving. Taking it slow with a step at a time. As they say the walk to recovery may take a while but everyday we just need to be with a positive thinking.


Anyhoots YES I have not been online, seriously internet is bad here ok and whenever I am online everyone is already asleep. Woopsieee... I am really sorry maybe its just not meant to be for now. But right now everyone should be busy with their new semester especially starting up their assignments. So I am safe from the nags for the time being uhu. I gotta admit doing no work here feels like hmpph cant complain but still I so missed doing the assignments and finishing up to dateline aha. Its only been less than a year and I am already dreading. I dont know what will happen when I start working. Sigh…


The past month has been really productive. Heck I even gone to a Finance and Economics seminar which was well educational and interesting. Went to the event with an ex-classmate whom I coincidentally met during a written test I attended. It was a good encounter we got to do some catching up. Reminiscing the good high school days, good times man…Oh I got to catch up with tons of my other friends as well. Finally I get to meet up with my dear friends that I have not seen since college. Its been more than 5 years. Wow time sure flies so fast.. I really am sorry for the long overdue. Sure was good, I hope theres gonna be more session of that soon.


Till Next tym. HAPPY FASTING TO EVERYONE!! =)

xoxo

Heart Speaks First!

Standing on the other side of the road
With a tear in your eyes
Wishing that I didn't act the way I do
Took it too far this time
I was filled with emotion
Instead of giving you space,I threw it in your face
And now, you just wanted me closer
But I pushed you away
I made you scream,I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team,as much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
Its hard for me to function when I know your sad
Like a robot in rain
And even though the hurt you feel is all my bad
It still drives me insane(its making me crazy)
And you know that I love you
That I need you to be there, like a table needs chairs
But love, after all that we've been through
Please don't let it all slip away
I made you scream,I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team,as much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
And its teling me to,and its telling me to love you(love you)
And its teling me to,and its telling me to love you(love you)
I made you scream,I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team,as much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words,remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first

Hmmphhh cant help but just love this, every time!! keeps popping up... A bit sad but meaningful..sigh...

3 little words!

Im just so tired to really update these days. Plus I rarely go online online and chat. When Im really up for it then I shall write more. The only thing that is on my mind now is those three words. And yea I have to mention this pic was actually drawn by my dear friend Miss 33. Hope you dont mind me posting it.

Till next time. I really do miss you. Mwahss <3ss

Wish

Hey everyone. I know its been awhile but for now I just want to make a short and simple shout out to all the family, my friends and relatives who had just had their birthday around the last week of JUNE (sorry hope its still not to late) and in the month of JULY a HAPPY BIRTHDAY... You know who you are, theres just too many names to mention ehe... May all your dreams come true and may god bless everyone of you..

*Sigh*

Things tend to get out of hand when there is a misunderstanding between two parties where one side doesn't really know the whole story or doesn't even bother to find out because they immediately come to a very irrelevant conclusion. Here's an advice which will benefit one way or another, sooner or later - Before coming to a conclusion, please, PLEASE get your facts straight. You might do something you'll regret in the end.

food for thought.

Things arent getting any better lately. Theres still so much that needs to be done in a matter of days. Ok for my previous post I know some people might get offended but it wasnt on purpose ok. It was just wrong timing and at the time was I so stressed. I dont mean to insult or offend anybody for that matter as it seems to be going out of propotion where I was just venting out. Everybody do have their moments.

Nothing special but just something thats so HEARTLESS

Hey guys, latest update still busy going back and forth to hospital. Thank god everything is getting better. Hmm yeah last night went to my cousin's bbq at 9 and end up going back at ard 1am. And today went to a distant cousins' wedding. I am just trying to get my mind at ease for the weekend. For now I just feel like sharing a song thats been playing in my head cos my bros have been constantly playing it and I just find it hard to get it out of my mind aha.. Here you go. Oh btw its a song by kris allen

In the night
I hear 'em talk
Coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me you know
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know of some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend
Well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could be so Dr. Evil
You're bringin' out a side of me that I dont know
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know she's hot and cold
I won't stop I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than
Me

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

Talk and talk and talk and talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far far far he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless

Seriously I dont get it why the boys love this song so much.For me its alright but maybe im just so heartless too when it comes to 'that feeling' for the moment aha. But I hope after posting this it would no longer be playing in my head heheh..Cheers..Loves

Lele

Ive never been sooooo mentally tired since last year.. But I cant do nething but just to be calm about everything at the moment.. I just hope gets better real soon and faster. Neways I dont really want to go on and on. Cant believe I didnt get to meet up with my friend shidah who came back for the week, I was just so busy with everything while shes busy with her sisters wedding. Oh well mayb next time around we can catch up yeah.

Anyhoots today is one of my closest and dearest friends bday who is so faraway. One of the people who will always be there everytime I need someone. Thanks for everything.HAPPY BIRTHDAY LELE. Sorry no gift this time around maybe next time ehe. May god bless you always girl and faster go get that someone special. Its about time dont deny it ehe. Ok u take care in melb..we so need to meet up in KL again yes.. Have a blast girl.

Me and Lele
Last outing in melb.I loike n miss.I shall return for another round ;)

xoxo

Praying for the best!

Heyyyy everyone...
Nothing much its the start of june and yes its time for exams for uni students in Australia.
Today just wanted to wish GOOD LUCK esp to all my dear FRIENDS who are studying in MELBOURNE who should be busy preparing for their final examination which is starting real soon or maybe have started already. Some may be finishing their assignment too. Hope everything goes well. Study well not too hard guys. Take good care of your health too XD
I pray that everyone will have a positive outcome.
LUCKS again everybody and dont stress.
Dont worry after its all done you can enjoy for all the hard work youve put! ;p

xoxo

Yay fever free

I just got back from the hospital after accompanying my lil bro who had injured his ankle after playing sports. Luckily its not broken only a minor sprain and will heal in a few days. Actually I just feel like posting the sticker that we get when they check ur temperature to prove ure 'fever free' from RIPAS hospital (the top one) n the bottom is from JPMC which was taken a few days ago too ehe..

Never ending *smiles*

Been out so much pasts few days and get way too tired easily. Yeah still been going here and there. Last thurs nite my bros, me and my cousins ended up watching Friday 13th as it was the only movie being played at the time we were at empire cinema. Since I had something early and important the next day so we had no choice but to postpond our star trek movie to another time. The movie was hmm not as scary as I tot it was hahaha. The only thing that was good about the night were the seats. We all just wanted to try out the VIP seat. Very very comfy Id say. Those who want to go on a movie date with style you could go try it out teehee.

What else have I been upto?
Just had a mini bbq and karaoke at my dear tanzies place. We couldnt do it at home and the bros wanted to have some so yeah. Despite having to go back a lil earlier than usual but still had fun. The next day the bro had to fly off back to KL again. Now the house is back to just the 6 of us. Well feels a lil quieter but its all good. Oh got sick after the weekend. Luckily wasnt all that bad that I recovered in just 2 days.

After all that had to drive around yesterday to shop for some stuff for my dad. Asked tanzie to accompany me as shes the only free person right now and shes the only person who can bare with my driving. thanks babe. love you so much. We had to go to several stops from around 1pm til around 5pm. Then we got hungry and decided to grab an early dinner at CAPERS to have some pasta as tanzie is craving for some ehe. Been awhile I still miss the Itallianes in KL though. Tan we so need to go back there and have another round of 'em. Okay okay Im like jumping elsewhere now haha but just cant help it. The day aint over, after we came back my dads bro cameover by the house around 8ish. Then tanzies rents came over as well too. They were here till aroun 11 at night. Tired Tired Tired after the long day. I wasnt able to get to bed till 3am.

Now the weather is so gloomy just right with my mood. I want to go somewhere but still so tired after last night. Oh right today is my dear ex-housemates "B's" birthday (below bday gal on the left wit me).

Happy birthday sweetie. Time to celebrate I know youre so gona have a great one since its the first time celebrating away from home. Hope one day we will get to see each other again who knows I might be able to go to Mauritius ehe. Anyhoots good lucks with everything and party till you drop ;)



Oh another shoutout to my dear cousin (above on right) too who is having her bday tomoro. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYOI. Ok time to party. I pray for a better year ahead of you. Lucks with everything babe. Cheers. Mwahugsss

Taking it easy!

my naughty yet adorable nephew *grr*

I know I know its nearly 2weeks since I have last blogged. Well Ive been so busy with whats been going on lately. Been going back and forth to the hospital and doing endless errands. Not so much of ME time for myself since last Monday. Noooo, Im not complaining but just a little exhausted and my head is all over the place. After today mostly I feel so far is settled. I just hope tomorrows plan to go for a movie is still on. I am so in need to take somethings of my head. For now I just pray everything goes smoothly and I will get some good news for my future ehe. When everything is over and I have time for activities I shall update and blog more yeah. Till next time. Love you all <3sss

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

Today everyone celebrated mothers day, one of the most meaningful day for all mothers around. And we brought cakes especially for ALL the MOMMIES in Tutong (at aunts place) again. Another round of sweet cakes. Below are the two limited edition cakes just for mothers day. The one on the left is fruit yogurt cake and on the right is orange cheese cake. Both do give a nice taste on their own. But love the yogurt pink covering *winks*




Ok thats it for now. Im so not gona eat anymore sweet stuff and cakes for awhile. After last night n just now gosh was wayyyy to much. Anyhoots I want to wish all the mommies around the world a HAPPY MOTHERS DAY, especially to my very own mom too. Love you always mama. Thanks for being a great mom. Lovesss

Happy Birthday Aida!!!

Its past midnight and just got back from Tutong, Tanz place. Had loads of fun with the cousins. Its been a while since the whole bunch of us had this kind of gathering. Although they were a few of the little kids but sure bring joy to the house with the dancing and game of musical chair, so oldschool ehe. We so need to have more of the kind of gatherings. Anyways here are some of the pics of the cakes with the birthday girl.

the bday gal wit her very colourful cake 1

so happpppyyyyyy~
less than half of the cakes left.good combo *winks*

Good night everyone and have a lovely weekend. mwahss

what is there to expect?

I feel that I need to say so much. Yet Im lost for words with everything happening around me. Maybe when the right time and the right words do come I will. Now its just still all over the place. Dont get me wrong though. But one things for sure I miss dot dot dot. Better leave it that way. I just wish we could turn back time and let it stop for awhile. Sigh. Now everything is just so complicated and confusing again. It seems to get worst and better to stay quiet for now hmm..oh and to all those who I know but have not talked to since like forever its not that I dont care but its just so hard to be in touch always and be as we were before. Things sure have change that I have to agree and I am trying to be better. We just need time and patience. =)

Home sweet home

Aahhhh the place where I grew up and have been most of my life. Here is the lovely mosque in Brunei. SOrry only the bottom one is taken by me uhu. Cant seem to get another other better pics. Still learning kays ;)

Night view of the mosque

This is just so random. There are other more interesting places here but I dont know for now only think I have this good shot. I shall try to get more good places here. Next adventure to do more sightseeing in my own country aha....woops

Tra la la

Nothing at the extraordinary has happened as of this week yet. A few days ago I went to watch Wolverine. Its a good movie. Went to Empire to watch it, the only crappy thing about the whole event was the chair which was so uncomfortable. Its been years I have not gone to the cinema. As of after the movie I think they should replace it. I am not really sure about the other cinema in Empire though. I still need to try the others ehe. Also I hated the girl behind us who just couldnt shut up as well during the entire movie. She just goes on and on whenever a scene comes up. If you want to be that annoying please watch it at home. We need total silence thats the reason why we watch it in cinema too. Not just cause of the huge screen. Alright thats about it for now. I am not really looking forward of the weekend. Finally it rain last night in this heatwave moment. Till next time. Waiting for a miracle ;p

the start of M-A-Y!

Today went to the career carnival in ICC. If im not mistaken its the last day for the expo. I was so surprised to see they were loads of people showed up considering being the last day and all the tons of people who were there dressing so improper. I just dont get it, these people were there to put a good impression or what. Basically the carnival/expo is open to people where companies mostly private sectors having open session for those who are interested to apply for job or change of career. They even had a walk in interview but it was such a shock to see majority of the people were not wearing formal clothes to such event. No wonder the 'employers' cant seem to find the perfect people for the job. Who am I to say but I just cant help it seeing being that way, at least wear some shoes not slippers. An advice is next time wear proper attire. Its so obvious that you need to dress well to convince those people that they should have you in their company. Anyways wish those people good luck though aha.

OK my purpose there was there just to have a look. Not so into the expo actually but everyone kept mentioning about it so yeah went there. Since I have to start somewhere and do something about my life now teehee. I was really really disappointed for sure. No more to say about it. I hope next year when they do held it again there would be more opportunities and better jobs offered. At least the people who turn out to the event were a lot considering it was the last day just now. Thats it about the day.

Yay mums back. The housse is not quiet hahahah. She came back with my bro who just finish his exam and he will be here for a few weeks I think. The house is full again hehehe.

Oh yeah I have forgotten to mention about yesterday. Had to go to a 'doa selamat' for an opening for my cousins cafe somewher in qlap. It was not really official cause they only invited families and their close friends. I shall promote the name SHIKAI HOME AND KITCHEN. Im not really a 100% sure of the name though cause the sign was not even hang yesterday. WOops. The place would be selling cookies and cakes. Not sure whatelse they offer. Sorry Im such a bad person to do promoting hahah. The location of the cafe is pretty good that I have to say. The outside of the cafe is so breezy if you want to chill with friends.

Yesterday all of us had to sit outside the cafe since the cafe was tiny to fit everyone of us.We were sitting outside where people kept passing by. The whole time people in their cars on looking. Considering we were having fun and all, I think people were so curious what we were upto and cant help but STOP and STARE (oh yeah I forgot to mention its not just youngsters there ok there were even the oldies ehe, i guess that one reason why with all the stares!). But seriously if I had a camera that time which has an automatic button it would be so great to get shots of people passing by with their expression of their stares. I know I know if I was one of them I would be as curious as them. Thats just normal here aha. Just looking at us there, Its as if we were chilling on the beach and having fun by ourselves in the middle of qlap. Not bothered about people hahaha. Just in our own world. [sorry cant share any pictures from the two events, it would have been good if I could post/grabs somepic tho. mayb next time].

Oh oh I totally forgot yesterday went hiking with my dear cousin and her colleagues in the early morning. Had a good fresh air again but couldnt go swimming ahhh. Hopefully next week we get to go for our weekly swimming though ehe. This week no tanning session thank god. ;p

So ADORABLE

you know you just cant help it but just smile (looking at this) XD

Hot weather?! Exam Fever!!

Omg its going to be MAY soon. I cant believe that I am still unemployed and still not doing anything aha. This has been a real long break. I thought it was gona be fun but now Im already dreading it. But yeah Im still deciding what to do maybe. Should I do this or that? Aahhhh as always still cant make up my mind. I really have to make a decision before May start. I have been back here for what almost 3 months and I am still not settling well and getting use to it fully just yet. Weather in the daylight is still torture and my biggest problem. I guess its all the heatwave. Now everyone around is sick too. Sighhh...

Oh actually Im here to wish my bro in Kayel all the best for his exam this week. I know u can do uit dude. Study well and stop thinking about coming and being overly excited. And to UBD people to which Im not really sure when they are starting either this week or next week. But to my dear cuz, intanzie who will start her exam next week. I wanna wish her all the best with her preparation for her final sem final semester. Hopefully you will get very good grades and graduate in the top yeah. Study smart yeah guys and dont stress much.

Lastly good luck to everyone who is busy with their assignments, coming tests and final exams everywhere. Exam fever is starting in May for all the students everywhere now. So all the best. Cheers.

Another day goes by....

Its been quite a while since I have really blog. Aha okay today Im so glad I woke up early. A fresh start. The weather here has been so hot which I could say burn your skin. Its noon now and I have just got back from my very tiring morning of swimming. Thats like my thing here lately I just cant get enough of being in the WATER for a long long time. So refreshing!! I could stay the entire day in it but the weather just now was real bad so only spend around two hours there. I bet if anyone were to see me now they'd say I am a bit tanner than before I got back. Being under the sun so much. Aahhh bad for the skin. Even though I dont like it but its just tough to stay fair here when you need to be outdoors right.

Now back home and so tired. We shall see what I will be doing later but for now I need to regain some energy first. And the best way is to blog ehe. Ok enough with it for now. Actually I want to post some pictures of my baking last night. Im so very happy with the outcome of the cake. Although its so sweet they said but its still yummy. Success for me with baking alone, at last. The cake is especially for my dear friend Tee who is in Melbourne. Although I couldnt be there to spend it with you and everyone else but yeah heres your gift. Sorry no decoration cause its my first time to make a cake. Good outcome though teehee. The process (sort of) till the outcome.

Fresh hot cake with some of the frosting chocolate

Just to prove I really did make it myself *winkz*

All done very chocolatey

Come celebrate eat and drink!

Oh yeah I totally forgot Tee I want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY Sweetie. I know you will have a blast even Im not there *eyerolls*. But anyhoots enjoy the day wisely yeah it only comes once a year. Good lucks with everything. Miss ya loads and Love ya gurl. Oh sorry babe I wasnt able to write your name on the cake. Icing gone maybe next time ;p

The last pic took with the bday gal during last summer break

Thats all for now. Oh I totally forgot Happy Birthday to Miss Zita as well. Okay Im off to somewhere now. Loves you.

CUTE

I came across this pic so I just feel like posting it nothing special. Cant help looking at their huge cute eyes. This is actually the drawing of the BoF k ver. Enjoys =)

Sorry

This is so random.I have just got nothing better to do at times like this and came across this song and well the lyrics meant something I guess.

Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights by lullabies helps make this pain go away
I realize I let you down, told you that I'd be around
Building up the strength just to say

I'm sorry for breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
You told me this time is the last time
That I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame for leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know you're going to walk away
Leave me with the price to pay, before you go I wanted to say

That I'm sorry for breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
You told me this time is the last time
I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

I can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go then please girl just leave me alone
'Cause I don't wanna see you and me going our separate ways
Begging you to stay if it isn't too late

I'm sorry for breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
It's all of me, this time is the last time
I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
But you're already on your way

Goodnyte and sweet dreams xx

Internet is back

Yaaaaay at last internet at home is back working! Nearly gone insane cause was not able to go online. Been pretty busy and a little lazy to say much these days so here I shall just keep it short Im happy cause the internet is back working at home and I successfully made some BREAD N BUTTER PUDDING for everyone at home. Oh and also I was excited today to finally the taste of linabby cupcakes and cookies topped with the icing topped which I have been longing for so long. Ok here below are some pictures from my phone sorry for the crappy pics. Thanks to the gurls for making N on em cuppies <3ss>

Cupcakes and Cookies upclose

cuppies and cookies in the bowl nyums *hearts*

Sideview of the Bread N Butter Pudding

And finally from the top

Oh n yeah its been rather quiet here at home. Missing mom whose in Kayel wit the bro and yes we all miss you too. Ahh and hate the hot weather. Surprise why do you think you dont see me out in the daylight you ask ahaks. Ciao babies till next time

Its Sunday AGAIN

Ok these days everyday is just the same whether weekend or weekday considering with me being so unemployed heheh..Today was really a weird weird day. Everything happened so unexpectedly.

Around noon time went to Empire hotel for the Sunday Splash. Its just an event where they held it for families to have a get together especially for the kids and those who love the WATER ehe. Oh and yes a good time to get a good tan. Hate to say it but I got a bit tan after being under the sun. Surprisingly the place was not as pack as I expected. We were there for nearly 3 hours. Just as I was about to leave the place got a call from Tanzie my dear cuzzie to come to Tutong Beach for a last minute birthday little gathering for another cousin who turned 10. Yes end up going there. Finally after being back in Brunei in 2009 at last I got to go to the beach here. Although it was raining most of the time but with all good food I so cant complain. Overall had a blast today despite all the rain ;p

Hmmm..other than that you ask what I have been up to the entire week?
I shall just cut it short as I dont want to say so much or else it can go on forever and forever. Well I just went to the GYM oh yes at last I went. Its totally different from Fitness First Ive gone to for the past 3 years. I dont even know whether I like it just feels so weird and the atmosphere hmm me speechless. Oh went to Limbang just for a few hours only to do something ehe. My week just been so busy but not much things aside just doing errands at most I shall say. As always my weekly routine went to Tutong to visit granny.

Oh yeah I totally forgot went to watch HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU. The movie was great with all the great actors in it as well. Worth to watch especially to those who are just lazy to read the book ahaks. I didnt expect them to make the movie that way. The casts were all so interconnected in some sort of way which made it more interesting. For those who are so in denial and just want to kill time why not just watch it. You might love it! *winks*

From A Book

Here now comes a movie with great actors XD

I shall end here with some pics so that it doesnt look so dull. Im off till next time.Mwahsss

Rain Rain Go Away!!

The house is pretty quiet now moms in kayel with my bro there..
Its pouring rain heavily outside..Im just gonna make it short today.
I want to wish my 2nd bro a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and hopes he will find what he wants in life esp that ehem ehem. Wishing him all the best. I cant post his pic here o else hes going to kill me so yeah.
Oh and by coincidence today is my parents wedding anniversary too if im not mistaken its their 30th anniversary. HAPPY ANNI MOM AND DAD.
Loves them all
Before i forgot want to say HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO EMILY which was yesterday who is in Melbourne. Miss ya babe..

xoxo

Pines Restaurant!

Hey Hey Hey...
Recently my life has been improving well sort of, sometimes hectic, sometimes boring sometimes busy, sometimes on the rock but so far everything cant complain. Well thats just the way it is right. Nothing broken so far (well yeah sort of). Im just in the mood to blog right now. Im suppose to be tired after just having to sleep like what 5 hours and today had been out the whole day going from one corner to the other end.woops..

What I have been upto yesterday you ask? Just had dinner with the family for an advanced bday for the bro. Long story short we had to make it earlier cause the other bro is leaving again to return to his studies. Finally I got to eat at a KOREAN restaurant. Ive been longing way too long. I loved the food but I dont think the rest were quite impressed woops. Ok maybe we would end up going for dinner elsewhere again soon. What can I say? Its their first time so yeah. The disappointing thing for me was that the dish that I really wanted was not there booo. I am still searching for that particular dish..sigh..

Here are some of the pics from the phone. Not much and bit crappy due to the camera phone and being so hungry. Might post some other pics from the guys teeheee..

The distorted (kind of) cover of the menu

Menu list of the k dishes!

Starters for the night

My food ;p

The cake, the closure for the night.nyum!!

Enough about food aha. Insomnia strikes again.
Cant wait for movie day tomoro hahah...Shopoholic so calling me!! ;p

Why oh why does it always happen when you were getting to enjoy it?hmm..Kisses to all XD

Decisions?!

WHAT DO YOU DESIRE THE MOST WHEN YOU HAVE EVERYTHING?
Care to answer or even elaborate.

Well if only I can the answer to that question. Heck for anything that comes along. I just am so over the place right now on whether to do this or that. Argghh I hate this cant seem to make up my mind AGAIN. One minute it can be this then the next it would be that. If only there is a sign that would show me and it would be easier to get that ANSWER without even having to think so much or even face so many consequences. Oooh IF ONLY IF ONLY (someone would always say!.Nothing better to do as always...

ps. want to shout out a Happy Birthday to a friend. thats it for now.
Im out
<3s

To my dear cousins

28th of March, yes its a special day for two of my cousins namely intan and ziqa. I want to make a shout out to both of them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUS. WISH THIS YEAR WOULD BE A BETTER YEAR FOR BOTH ;)


happy birthday tanzie. hope you graduate with good grades this year.
ps waitin for an even better pic with same tops yes? soon i hope teehee.


happy 18th birthday ziqa. wish you all the best for the a levels.

loves ya
xoxo

Yesterday Today Tomorrow!

People always say we can never predict what tomorrow will be for us. We can only plan but it often dont turn out as we wished it should.

Ok that’s just me rambling with some stuff. Neway yesterday had to wake up early to make an appointment to go salon. End up being late as usual coming from a person who isnt much of an early person these days unless Im forced or drag aha. I was in desperate need of having a treatment cause my hair doesn’t feel so fresh and as soft as before. It took nearly an hour for the whole process but in the end it was worthwhile. Wasn’t really in the mood to go anywhere with the hot weather on Thursday afternoon so stayed home after buying lunch. Later at night then me and the boys headed to Tutong at me cousins crib to have their special dish ‘the fried crabs’. It was delicious, have not eaten fresh crabs ages and fried crabs was a first for me. Stayed there till around 2am. We end up just joking around and listening them play guitar n singing along. I was little tired but managed to stay awake till the end. Reached home around 3am but I only managed to sleep at 5 in the morning. Argghhh…

Obviously I didn’t get to go do my Friday weekly routine today cause wasn’t able to wake at 6.30 after yesterday. Only woke up nearly 11 woops. I was even lazying around in bed till heck Im not sure what time. Ok I was pretty excited today cause was going meet my Best Friend from high school. Gosh I really do miss her alot. Its been like forever since we both meet and had our endless session of talking session. Back in the school days we were so inseparable and basically we don’t get sick of each other. When I am not over her place it’s the other way. Then when we cant meet we’d talk on the phone like ages. I still can remember at one time when I lost my voice we were even on the phone together. How silly was that. But those were surely good memories huhu.Sigh I miss those days. Although we are all grown ups now, a lot have changed and happened Im so glad we are still friends. Our catching up today was way overdue but it was good. Too bad we had to make it short though. Oh how I miss it so much. If only we can turn back time or maybe put it to a stop for a while. But yeah life does have to go on. But the memories don’t die and stop here.

Enough with that before I start going overboard. O its past midnight it’s a special day for two of my dear cousins eheh. Unfortunately the plans for later to meet in the noon time I have to bail out cause have to go to Miri with my family. But I hope will still get to see my dear cousin on her bday ;)

Hope Saturday will be better day *yawns*

Lost for words

Just feel like posting this cause I dont feel like typing a lot. Plus I love this pic so much. Not only it is outdoor but just can see everyones faces are glowing with 'smilies'. hope we can take more with the others too. If only Sigh~

Still loving this pic to bits.
Love you guys

Headache Headache Headache

Argghh just when you think that the problem is gone it comes crawling and coming back. When will it all end. Really cant take it. Time to runaway again. Hate it!!!

Im having a major headache now and the med doesnt seem to be any help.And I thought its suppose to be making you sleep. As if~

Sigh.. Helppppppp take away all the pain and headache.

Karaoke Nite

Had a very long crazy day today...Finally I drove the entire afternoon today, just with my bros. Yes guys I DRIVE ahaks. Everyone I know has been dying to hear that from me.

Went out with the guys just to buy an ipod nano for 'em and went for lunch. Spend most of the time just wasting time with them and crusing around. Than met the cousins at the apartment just to go somewhere *winks*. Later went back to the apt to chill and fool around with karaoke-ing to kill time to fetch my bro returning from kayel. As usual flight is running late. Then we headed off for dinner with everyone and off to the shop to find more karaoke vcds hehehe...

Time to head back to start our KARAOKE all night long till the early morning. Now everyones here karaoke-ing and also in front of our lappies cos their only enough for two to sing at one time. Multitasking is just the way to do it uhu..Its already 2 in the morning and we still going strong. I dont think we are stopping anytime soon everyones still wide awake n staying strong Lol.. Its been so long since we last gather together to do this stuff. Guess thats all for now before I miss my turn..ciao bellas...

Cant wait for the weekend

Its been going good for me this week. Thats like a fresh start for me. Yesterday I decide to stay home in the morning to regain my energy from the exhaustion on Wednesday. Nothing interesting I did but got to go out in the afternoon. Despite the hot weather I survived going out just to go to the bakery to get my grandma some chicken quiche that she requested ehe. So got to get some quiche and yeah went to TUTONG afterwards to give the food at around 3.30pm. Was supposed to be therejust for a while but yeah with the endless chit chat with the aunts theres just no end haha. And when Tanz went back home. Well we got to talked and continue discussing and yeah "catch up" til we go way then expected. But had to be shorten cause had to get back home before 7.So yeah we said our goodbye and planned to continue our "TALK" on sat with some gathering and sleepover away from the fam oops hahah. Girls with the Gossips and talk its a never ending.




Today
Well it sure was such a long day with a very early start. Surprise Surprise woke up at 6 to follow my cousin to go trekking. First thing was to go TASEK again but then we end up going to BUKIT SHAHBANDAR cause had to meet my cousins bro to get her swimwear. Though it was only the two of us but sure was great. As I recall the last time I went was 2 years ago. The best thing was that I felt that I have gained my stamina a lil huhu compared to that last time I went oh and the fact we were fast finishing the trekking in less than an hour aha..After that our plan was to go swim and meet up my cousin's friend and we swam for like an hour plus. And guess what I think I got a little burnt *uwaa* but its ok being in the cold water sure was refreshing after the trekking ;P

My day didnt end there. In the afternoon went to a relatives 'NIKAH' (wedding ceremony) as we call it here. Its been way too long since I have gone to last. Sure touched my heart. Was so happy for the couple. Cant wait for someone close to get married the traditional way here with the various events tic tic tic..hehehe..Ok I shall stop before I get carried away..

Overall everything seems to get better and Im getting use to it here I shall say. AND excited about tomoro as its weekend and time to P-A-R-T-Y (as if~) huhuh. Time to go out with those busy busy people finally. Now off to my fb-ing as usual

Peace

I Loike it~

At last today I get to do something achieving and fun too. Woke up so daym early today though barely had enough sleep. I had to accompany dad to TASEK to have his morning exercise walk. Normally mom would be the one accompanying him but today she has to attend a religious ceremony so in the end I was forced to wake up so EARLY with not enough sleep and energy to go. It was such a relief though walk around the tasek again and up the hill. Its been way too long that I have breath the clean fresh air. And yes finally I went outdoor hahah..

The people at home have been forcing me to wake up early just to do exercise only today they succeed. In the afternoon was supposed to go to Sauna and steam room but was afraid I might get over exhausted cause had well sort of a date with a friend to go to gym so need to cancel it. So I just did relaxed my body and then my friend msged me saying change of plans as it her friends bday today so we had to postpond. I was a little annoyed cause she kept bailing out so yeah I did some YOGA. It sure was relaxing after the morning session ahaks. Then suddenly another someone offered if I wanted to join to go swimming. Tempting but was not really in the mood and I rather stay at home and in the end decided to bake some cupcakes on my own for the people at home hhehe..

It turnout great well aside from some that got burnt *woops* and was way too sweet as they all complained hahah but all in all everyone at home were satisfied. Im loving my day today regardless of the constant last minute plans. Hopes tomoro will be even a brighter day for me.

mwahs

Waiting for miracles =P

Its so late. Im so bored out of my mind. Cant sleep. Cant use the internet as it is really daym slow. Msn is crappy everytime tried going online seems like firefox gets frozen and cant do anything. Ok last weekend was really such a bummer for me, I could have done some sports activity but because I caught a bad sore throat amd made me lost any mood so pretty much end up trying to recover FAST. Thank god for the endless honey lemon I manage to heal the throat within 3 days.

Now Im missing Melbourne, the companions, my dear friends, the crazy weather and the life there. Oh not forgetting the endless and nonstop outdoor activities and shopping. It makes me want the Max B right now arghh...I hate this, everthing that I want and need seems to be so faraway and impossible to reach.Patience Patience...

Had been there 3 years and Im so used to being with the environment it sure changed me overall. So much have happened and tons of good memories that I could not forget. Too bad just as I had to leave got to know so many. Thinking that you dont know when you will eventually meet them all together again is so hurtful. But every moment shared there have been good. I wish right now I can go back there to study or work or maybe just visit.

Alot of the friends kept on asking me "When you will be back?". Its not that I dont want to but I cant at the moment. Oh how glad I would be if I could just fly there this instant and forget everything here. But you do have to remember there are other more important priorities to be attended here. Well who knows maybe a miracle might happen and I might be back in Melbourne sooner than anyone would think.

OK i have got to admit its been a little lonely being here at the moment. Everyone I know whose here are either busy working or in uni. Unlike me who is so unemployed and havent had the slightest idea what to do but just do random stuff when something seems good comes around. Only during weekends where everyone seems to be so free. But yeah if you been here your wholelife you'd notice theres nothing much to do here unless you are with the right company. And as for me, my social circle is well pretty much very limited. I so have to broaden the circle especially Im back for good this time.

Oh how I miss my lovely friends back there in melbourne and not forgetting my friends who are busy with their own things and life.Well people grow up, grow apart, things change but deep down theres always in our heart although we are not as close as before. I know its so hard especially when distant is one of the factor too.

p.s want to wish a happy birthday to one of the aunt

X0X0

Fed up

I just cant stand all those fakers who always pretend to be nice and be extra friendly in front of you. And just when you leave or turnaround they wont stop bitching/talking bad stuff about you. Especially the two face people and liars. Why cant they just stop it and leave us alone or say it to the face instead of spreading lies. If you dare to say something hurting or spread lies why not just say it straight to the person you are talking about.

pfft

Sky of Love

For starters I had a very good weekend. Nothing really interesting just a good relaxing weekend since coming back from the busy and hectic city of kuala lumpur. Went swimming with a cousin then had a sleepover with the others with our endless karaoke-ing. I cant help myself from singing with the peeps till the early dawn. Was quite disappointed that there were not much of the latest English songs. Still end up singing the whole night till like 4 in the morning. Then we continued with our chit chat in bed till we fall asleep. Then woke up only 5 hours later to do some cooking for brekkie. Had such a great weekend. Miss the good old days with our session of never ending sleepovers, outings and late nigts/early morning girl talk.Sigh...

Anyhoots Im suppose to be sleeping by now but as usual end up still so wide awake. Cant help it so many things going on in my head and especially tomoro coming. I wish I can just skip tomoro and move on. Since I cant seem to sleep i end up watching a Japanese movie called koizora which mean Sky of Love. Its been awhile since Ive watched any of those non-English movie. This will always happen when I cant sleep and especially with the pouring rain outside. Trying to make me sleepy the least I could do is watch something rather than thinking unnecessary stuffs I guess.



Ok this movie is interesting! Although it was quite predictable but the ending was good. I can say some who are so into the whole lovey dovey thing might get blown away.In short the story is about a girl named Mika (Yui Aragaki) who falls in love with the 'bad-boy" type Hiro (Haruma Miura) and their love story is sweet, realistic and simply touching to the heart.Well the movie speaks for itself I cant say everyone would love it though so if theres nothing to do why not just watch it I guess XD

Now Im still not even close to being sleepy but I shall force myself cause tomoro will be an early start for me and a full day too. I hope everything goes well.

Kayel and Jason Mraz <3ss

It was exactly one month that I have been back but then left for KL again for a quick 5 days trip. I had an awesome trip with my dear cousin. Got to do loads of window shopping, played bowling, went karaoke-ing and a lot of endless walking. The best part of the trip was JASON MRAZ. I have got to admit I am not much of a fan of his and only knew some of his song. But after listening him sang live I cant help but fall for his voice. Although during the concert it sure was such a hassle waiting so long in the hot with load of people queuing. It took us forever to get in and worst it was free seating tickets so had to go early. But once the concert starts it was worth the wait. Its been too long since I last went to a concert. All in all it was one of my great nights in KL.

Being back in KL i wished i did not have to leave. One heck of a trip but surprisingly I am glad to be back here in Brunei. The air here is way cleaner. But I wont pass another opportunity if someone invited me to go back KL. As for now I am just enjoying my "ME" time n being unemployed just filling the time with doing spontaneous and random stuff.

Endless

I cant believe it has been non stop the past few days. Continuously going around everywhere and doing errands sure was such a busy week for me. As always for me, staying still in one place would be a no for me. Met new people, old friends, catching up with some friends finally as well. Time for me to get myself occupied before getting so serious.

Yesterday went to my cousins' place to go for her 'Bollywood theme 18th birthday bash'. Although we were late due to some circumstance but hey at least we dressed darn nice and well fashionably late. It was really a blast and sure had loads of fun especially getting to see everyone dressing up and competing for the best dressed for male and female. There were even singing and rockstar competition session. All in all with the countless activities and competition during the night at the end of the night I shall say everyone was satisfied and enjoy themselves. Since me and some of the others sleptover we end up continuing going crazy with the singing and joking around till the early dawn of nearly at 5am.

Then we had to wake up early as we had to go for brunch before going back. Getting ready for the girls took ages so had to go to the shower asap.Today after brunch had to wait for a friends friend. Its the first time to actually meet him. Been like forever for me to meet him. I had to give his pressie after so long. It really was such a good encounter considering meeting him for the first time. Was surprise he was full of life and friendly too. Sadly we were only able to talk for a bit as he had things to do. Maybe in the future we'd get to hang out and get to talk more. Anyways after leaving him,went back to my cousins place to get our stuff and head back home. Oh made a stop to the airport to meet another friend who is leaving to pursue her study back in Aussie.

Enough for the day.

I still have not had a good sleep with the endless activity and sleepless nights in the past few days. Im suppose to pack my stuff for tomorrows' trip to kayel. Another week of countless activities coming up for me again. Me and another cousin of me is meeting up my bro who is studying there. Im just joining to have some fresh air and leave town. I am pretty excited for this trip cause we are going to watch Jason Mrazs' concert. Though I am not a fan but hes like the hottest stuff now and heck its been forever since I have gone to a concert so yeah. I cant wait to have a short trip out of the country and have a little fun away from everything xoxo

Cupcakes

Everyones latest obsession here is cupcake especially the red velvet cupcake. No surprise there. Its normal when one starts obssesing about something then everyone in the whole country would be into it too. I wont deny I have been loving em since forever. Before coming back from melb was already so into it but it usually was hard to find. Surprisingly now you can find them everywhere but its hard to find good ones. After I found out the small cute cupcakes which was so good but daym expensive cant help to start craving it. I was surprised that when I came back that it was cupcake season here.Its a good thing that I still have a sweet tooth for such dessert.

Last week discovered that it as hard to make it when I have helped out my dear friend to make some batch. Too bad that she have to leave me back here and no one to bake with me. Though didnt do much that night but only help put the mix to the cups.I wasnt that satisfied. Guess what tonight I actually prepared and made the red velvet cupcakes from scratch with my cuzzies again. We were pretty happy with the outcome considering no help from the pro-bakers. For me its been years since Ive baked so I was a lil scared we might end up burning or overbeating the cakes. Surprise suprise everything turn out well. Maybe when I have more free time and am actually home I might fill my time creating other kind of flavors and design for the cupcakes.As for now I prefer to just eating them hahah.

BIrthday bash

ok this week theres going to be two birthday celebration parties which one held here and the other in melb. obviously im unable to make it to the one in melb. But hope they will have a blast and great one there. As for the party held here its rather interesting for me cause it a theme birthday party. I am so excited to see hows everyone going to be dressed with.The picture above is actually the e-invitation from the hostess herself.Cant wait <3s

Just me

Here are some facts about me. Lately so many things has happened in my life. Recently I have just finished my studies. Now trying to settle back to where I use to be and getting used to everything again. Been so occupied with life, catching up with friends who are going to leave soon and figuring out what I want in life right now. A lot may say I am avoiding but in actual fact just need some time and space to straighten things out and get my life sorted.

In short time for the past six months I have learnt so many interesting things and got to meet tons of different people which some I gotten close. It really was painful that so much of memories I had to leave behind in melb especially those people I have just started to get close. Can’t deny but they sure have become such an impact to me. Although some I still get to see back home but then it is just not the same and in the end some still had to leave me again while they continue their studies again. But I have gotten to accept everything. I know that deep down I will get to meet them again in the future if not here maybe there or somewhere else. But for the time being all we can do is just to keep in touch and try to broaden the friendship among each other.

It been nearly two months I have left melb and it’s only less than a month I have been back here. I miss my friends, miss being independent and being able to do anything, anytime as much as I like. Don’t get me wrong I can do that here too but its a little limited and you have to be careful. Ok since I have been back been wasting my time though I did manage to catch up with most of friends that I get to bond more and grew closed which I love. There is still a lot that I need to meet up especially those I have not seen like forever. But I guess they can wait since I am back for good for the time being so there is loads of time to hang out and catch up.

Before I get any further I shall better stop. For now I feel good to be back but being unemployed does not help. I am so bored at the moment and it making me go insane. Hope I get a job real soon or else do something worthwhile and educational.

Trying out!

Dont really know how to start and where to begin. Just drop a few words as an opening to my blog. I dont even have the slightest idea whos going to read this blog of mine. But it doesnt hurt to try to start since I have got some free time at the moment. Till next time ;)